Still, so still, the early morning winter stillness.
Sooo cold, night giving way to morning, the light catching and revealing the millions of tiny snow diamonds.
Yet each time they reveal themselves, my mind takes me from the first time I saw them to each time after, from the first time of trying to capture them to take to my papa to the realization that their value is in the wonder they can still give me.
There are fleeting memories attached to my snow diamonds, echoes of childhood laughter, mine and my children, the crisp crunch of snow, and the yearning of that innocence that believed that the snow diamonds were resting stars for they twinkled so.
I type this and wonder how many others were captivated by the twinkle of snow diamonds, and if they too captured in memory the wonder of it all.
Fleeting memories of the baby-hood of all of my children as they start asking more about "when they were babies". I look at their pictures as newborns and they all looked exactly the same, so tiny and bald - with the exception of Aaron who was huge compared to the others. How they all evolved into the people they are now and still developing and growing- learning about themselves and who they want to be. I look forward to their lives, I am excited about the experiences they are going to have. I reflect on the lack of sleep especially over the last 8 years, I don't regret a single minute of it. (well maybe one or two minutes...heh) Living a life of going forward and doing the best job possible with the tools that you have. I grew up with my older kids and passed on the knowledge that I gleaned in the process - don't want them to make the same mistakes I did without a little bit of a choice in the matter. Giving them the awareness that I never had in what the world is about, being truthful and always expecting nothing less than the best that they can give. These memories - I will use the phrase "snow diamonds" as it is so appropriate - are in the millions and I love it when comes to the for front and "lands on the tip of my nose" and reminds me of the blessings I have and the truth of the adventure I have chosen in my life. Loving all of it...even when it feels crappy for a minute or two.
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